by Wildhorse » Tue Oct 24, 2017 5:33 pm
One theory about criminal acts is that any of us would steal, murder, etc., given an opportunity, if we were under pressure and could rationalize the act. Another theory is that we learn to be criminals from others. Another is that some of us are born criminals. More than one friend working in the justice system has told me that they believe there are two kinds of people: normal people and criminals, and they don't act the same way, and their minds are different.
In a compassionate murder, if there really is such a thing, love is the rationalization. What is the pressure? Maybe that is love too, or maybe hate. Darwin wrote that nature is indifferent towards them.
Maybe the guy shot the girl, realized the horror of his crime, cursed love, or hate, and then killed himself because the pressure of guilt or eventual disgrace and punishment overwhelmed him. He might have struggled with this for some time before he killed himself. Maybe he first fled and returned to the scene facing the awful truth that his only escape was death. If his mother's feeling has any correspondence with timing, he may have suffered for days before his last pull on the trigger.
Existential guilt can overpower the existential fear of death.